About a bar of chocolate

A two week holiday, nothing extraordinary except a small chocolate bar every day after lunch and.I returned to college 10 pounds heavier.I'd been,pound-wise ,chocolate-foolish if I might grossly misquote.

Just a small chocolate bar, in the grand scheme of 24 hours,had made such a marked difference in the way my clothes fit two weeks later. What if I could see instant ill effects for all the careless things I did in life,complacently or lazily?Maybe,then I'd live more purposefully?

It's the same,with a whole series of five minute gaps I allow myself to seize throughout the day,to browse the net or indulge in entertainment of some sort...only to find by the end of the day ,month or year that the day,the month or even the year for that matter were nothing but- a series of five minute intervals ,seized for everything except the important high priority stuff and I let them slip through my fingers.Each five minute break was  not just those five minutes but a whole lot of fives!
It was not just a chocolate bar it was a whole waist-size!

We pray ,"Lord do not bring us to the test," yet run towards the temptations with arms wide open.Then wonder why our prayers fell on deaf ears. Like someone asked,"Do you hear yourself,when you talk?!" Well,I surely do the actions that prove I don't,and that's one less thing to be proud of . :(

Memorials and Sacred Fire

Sacred Fire  is a good book.

 How beautiful to come upon such edifying literature in the public library!

So Ronald Rolheiser says some very interesting things in this book,which got me nodding in agreement and I thought jotting it down here would be good for times when I might forget that I once knew such things to be true,because times of peace and tranquility tend to do that to us,they make us spiritually fat ...

(Here's an interesting fact: when you reach around the age of eighty and you see a new greyish coloured ring around your cornea, that is actually fat deposited deep in the edge of the cornea there!).Similarly,when we get old without too many hitches, our spiritual eyes get fat deposits too... and we begin to forget. Forget how God taught us so many truths through our struggles. When a mother delivers her baby they say she forgets the pains of the preceding labour because of the overwhelming joy of seeing her little baby alive! Forgetting  pains is probably a necessary God given blessing but the down side is that we often forget the associated lessons. Hence the need for memorials. It's all over the bible,it's God's brilliant corollary to the blessing of forgetting,setting up memorials!

To Noah he gave the rainbow* to the Israelites led by Joshua,the 12-stone monuments#...of course there is the Passover and the Lord's Supper...These are a few and I guess,the memorials for me are the posts in this blog :)

So Ronald says that depth of soul is directly proportional to any humiliating suffering undergone by the person.He becomes deep in a generative way if he responds to it empathetically,but deeply destructive if he grows bitter and cynical as a result of it.Ronald says that the anguish of Jesus in Gethsamane was not about whether to die or seek Divine intervention for a way out of dying,rather it was about "how to die".Whether to die in magnanimity of soul or cynical bitterness.We know what Jesus chose,now the question is what will our choice be?

He says that we must at the sunset of life,be prepared to forgive.Forgive everyone including God and ourselves.Forgive God?... But then yeah,we know how we often blame Him for things that are actually beyond our understanding.

Of course the book has more to give,I just remember these points poignantly.
God bless.

*Genesis 9:11,14,15 "I establish My covenant with you; and all flesh shall never again be cut off by the water of the flood, neither shall there again be a flood to destroy the earth." ... It shall come about, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow will be seen in the cloud,and I will remember My covenant, which is between Me and you and every living creature of all flesh; and never again shall the water become a flood to destroy all flesh.

 #Joshua3:13 The priests will carry the Ark of the Lord, the Lord of all the earth. As soon as their feet touch the water, the flow of water will be cut off upstream, and the river will stand up like a wall.”
14 So the people left their camp to cross the Jordan, and the priests who were carrying the Ark of the Covenant went ahead of them. 15 It was the harvest season, and the Jordan was overflowing its banks. But as soon as the feet of the priests who were carrying the Ark touched the water at the river’s edge,16 the water above that point began backing up a great distance away at a town called Adam, which is near Zarethan. And the water below that point flowed on to the Dead Sea[c] until the riverbed was dry. Then all the people crossed over near the town of Jericho.
17 Meanwhile, the priests who were carrying the Ark of the Lord’s Covenant stood on dry ground in the middle of the riverbed as the people passed by. They waited there until the whole nation of Israel had crossed the Jordan on dry ground.
Joshua 4:6
" In the future your children will ask you, ‘What do these stones mean?’ Then you can tell them, ‘They remind us that the Jordan River stopped flowing when the Ark of theLord’s Covenant went across.’ These stones will stand as a memorial among the people of Israel forever.”
So the men did as Joshua had commanded them. They took twelve stones from the middle of the Jordan River, one for each tribe, just as the Lord had told Joshua. They carried them to the place where they camped for the night and constructed the memorial there.